16 October, Thursday

 

3:38 h I ate beans, rice, a couple of eggs, plenty of raw onion and garlic and quesadillas. Yesterday morning, I cooked a big amount of potatoes (weight), boiled them in water to eat with salt grain, onion and garlic with quesadillas.

I will not eat meat this week, beef or any other. Eating big amounts of carbohydrate could give my body the nourishment needed, for my muscles could be empty of glycogen. These days I have drunk coffee with bread, bananas and pieces of “piloncillo”. I believe this blend could help.

I pedaled on my AluBike bicycle (aluminum frame, very heavy) over rollers. I had covered 10 km (6.25 miles), suddenly the rubber band broke. I was forced to end the training session, I did strength exercises (pushups and dumbbells exercise).

The final reading (after covering only 10 km) was 5811 km (odometer function in my cyclo-computer). I turned 58 years old on 27 April 2022. Eight months before, in August 2021, I had been fired in a pharmaceutical company where I worked as English – Spanish translator. I refused to accept being job harassed by a malignant narcissist —a psychopath— and because of that I lost a job that I had performed well (I was considered brilliant).

Fifty-eight times one hundred (distance in km covered using that very heavy bicycle), 58 years old. My life had become a nightmare once more. Post-traumatic stress.

AVEX Electronics became a corpse sometime after I resigned because a megalomaniac “friend” (my boss) harassed me in January 1998. I was 34 years old, my life fell into an abyss; somehow I survived.

Productos Maver should also become a corpse. That would be fair. Cadáver is the word in my mother tongue. Spanish.

“Is that possible?”

“I don’t know”

“Will I ever know?”

“Maybe, if I live a few years more”

I am in good health, in spite of being underweight. 132 pounds, being 5’10’’. Is there a reason to believe that I could die soon? I don’t know, nor do I care. Not much, anyway.

 

I am going to read one or two chapters of Agnes Grey, by Anne Brontë. I’ll go to walk with my pup, lovely female dog. Her name is Clara, cutie.

 

4:15 h Today, 16 October, Thursday, I must write a letter to my sister and a letter to my mum.

I should mention that I’ve eaten a lot of potatoes. I eat rice and beans every day, with a couple of eggs (as I mentioned above) and I’ve come to realize that I can recover from exhaustion (physical burn out) eating big amounts of carbohydrate. I’ll tell them too that this week I will not eat any kind of meat and I’ll eat more fruit, high content of fructose, a nutritious sugar.

Healing is near. Life is giving me back what evil individuals intended to snatch from me.

What will happen to antagonists, foes, enemies?

I don’t know, nor do I care. They are somewhere, but do not exist to me. I live in the present and intend to look forward. The past is experience, I have learnt.